My first-semester senior year of high school has honestly been the semester I feel I have grown the most. Personally, I struggled heavily during my junior year trying to balance my academic and home life. When I was picking out my schedule end of junior year, I decided that I was not going to overexert myself and gave myself an early dismissal. This was probably the best decision I have made in my high school career and something I highly recommend future seniors do, especially for the first semester. I underestimated how much time college applications would take and having an early dismissal really saved me. Additionally, having an early dismissal allowed me to manage my time better. Having more time to plan out the rest of my day made me more efficient and got rid of being stressed every minute of the day.
Another big decision I made was actually more recently. I decided to not take my next semester’s math class, Linear Algebra. As I am on this journey of learning my limits (live laugh love calculus jokes), I also have been prioritizing my mental health and happiness more. I had a great time my first semester, but my math class consumed seventy percent of my time inside and outside of school. Realistically, I could take Linear Algebra and just power through the class, this is probably what junior year Celina would have done. However, I have now come to terms with the fact that I simply do not like math enough to put myself through that for another entire semester. Further, it would be an unnecessary stressor in my home life since everyone was on edge about my MVC grade (don’t worry I pulled through on the final).
Throughout my first-semester senior year experience, I also learned that I really enjoy the field of psychology. Before taking AP Psychology I never had exposure to the ideologies involved with the subject and always saw myself as a more math and computer science-oriented person. Yet, when Mr. Scott did his first psychological trick on us in the first week of class, I became fascinated with the subject. So much so that I think AP Psychology has been my favorite class this semester (sorry Mr. Williams). My parents were just as shocked as I was when I randomly started pointing out the Freudian defense mechanisms they demonstrate at the dinner table. As the class continues, I find myself more and more enthralled by the modern applications of what I have learned. Maybe I’ll end up being a #WomenInPsych instead of a #WomenInCS.
Mr. Scott’s enlightening class had also made me a more open-minded person in general. I thought I found my niche in middle school and never really allowed myself to continue exploring other interests. I always thought that I should know what my future career is as soon as possible so I could prepare in high school and college. Yet, as I have gone through high school and specifically my senior year, I finally gained an understanding that one does not have to be ahead of the curve or know their star factor in sixth grade to be successful.
As I am re-reading what I have written so far I realize that I have basically been rambling about calculus and my climb up Maslow’s Hierarchy Needs for the past five hundred words. So I am going to end this blog with a total change of topic and some advice that I wish someone had told me before entering my senior year: college is a shot in the dark, don’t take it to heart. No, I am not just saying this because I got deferred from the one school in the state of Illinois that I actually like and wanted to go to 😥. But honestly, I have transformed into an optimist this semester. After crying for two hours after the fact, I realized that I still have the entire college process left and needed to suck it up and finish writing the rest of my regular decision applications. Which in turn made me feel better because as I researched more schools I realized how much I had put my early school on a pedestal and that other schools also offer amazing programs and courses.
I now want to go and eat Cheez-Its, so that is the end of my first semester blogs! I hope to come back with a more stationary blog post next semester, see you then!