Yesterday, I opened up my Fidelity account on my computer, checking my investments which are undoubtedly down. I look at the dashboard, and I’ve lost money. I was already at the fifth stage of grief before I even opened up my account, so I tolerate the losses. Another widget is on the screen— apparently I could open a new credit card with Fidelity, but I don’t need it.
Then, I am met with horror.
“You could retire in 49 years,” the dashboard proudly exclaims.

WOOHOO!
Huh? Retire when I’m almost seventy years old? Don’t most people retire when they’re about sixty five? I’m way behind! Flabbergasted, I get up from my chair and pace around the room. I’ll just have to make more money, then. I can do that. I will work many years after I’m done with school, surely I’ll make enough money to retire sooner than in FORTY NINE YEARS. Tension releases from my shoulders and I’m back down to earth. Breathe in- three, two, one- breathe out. I begin to feel better about my future and my finances.
I only have the money I made from summer in that account, so I can (hopefully) retire sooner than the calculator predicts. All is well.
All of this talk about retirement begs a bigger question, however: what exactly will I do in these forty nine years? Currently, I don’t know what I am going to do next week, or for the next four years, so trying to predict the next forty nine years will be impossible.

This is where my aunt thinks I’m going to college
There is a big emphasis in society on knowing what you want to do in the future. At family get-togethers a few months ago, your aunts and uncles were asking you “where are you going to college?” despite the fact that you hadn’t even applied. Your parents are asking you “what do you want to do after college?” even though you have no clue what you should study during college.
Uncertainty permeates our dreams and ambitions. If you try to predict the future, then you will be driven mad. The only certainty in the future is that your plans will be foiled. Given this unpredictability, what is the best course of action?
Make plans for the future. Counter-intuitive, right? If you execute plans for the future and they fail, it is, in the majority of cases, a net positive for yourself. By taking action on a plan, you are accomplishing something and coming closer to your goals. Even though it is highly unlikely that your plans will work out, at least you actually did something.
Back to the retirement talks. What do I personally want to accomplish in these forty nine years? Well, I would like to amass significant wealth. One caveat- I’d like to do this in an altruistic manner, that is, I make a positive contribution to society while counting my Benjamins.
So I have an overarching goal for my life, or career rather. To make a plan for this, I just work backwards from there. How could I get to that point if I were fifty years old? How would I get to that point at fifty if I were forty? How about twenty one to forty? Eighteen to twenty one? If you follow this method, you’ll eventually reach a starting point for yourself, a beginning on a path to whatever goal you’d like to achieve.

Bob the petroleum engineer with a family of four
An example: Bob wants to make enough money to raise a family of four. To do this, he would need an income of about $80,000 per year to live comfortably in most states (source: https://www.census.gov/data/tables/time-series/demo/income-poverty/4-person.html). How could he do this? He could be a petroleum engineer, an occupational therapist, a real estate agent, or whatever career would get him to that salary. Bob loves oil, so he decides that petroleum engineering is best for him. So, he’d have to get a job being a petroleum engineer, and to do that, he’d have to get the necessary training at university. For Bob to raise a family of four, he’d have to study petroleum engineering at a university.
This is a super a priori way of thinking, but if you get more specific than that, then you’ll increase the likelihood of your plans failing. If we included ‘getting a job at Exxon,’ on the plan and Bob didn’t do it, then his plans would be ‘ruined’ even though he could get a job elsewhere.
Additionally, this plan is far from foolproof. Bob could still fail his plans. Suppose he just cannot understand calculus: his plans would be no more since he will not pass university to get a degree. What follows failure? Adjusting or reevaluating your goals and creating a new plan.
I invite you to try this with yourself. Perhaps it could offer some perspective that could be of some use to you.
You probably disagree with a lot of my thoughts. Maybe what I’m stating is obvious. Maybe it’s not. Maybe it’s completely wrong. I don’t know, but I hope it helped you in some way.
Ian, I read this entire article almost as if I was watching you speak it to me. Your tone and voice come through so well and I love the beginning of this blog. The humor about retirement and how you describe yourself pacing and breathing hard. I feel like I saw you do this in front of my own eyes. Also, I feel like we are so similar in the fact that both of our families have been constantly asking about college. Even in the summer when I didn’t apply to any colleges yet, my uncles and aunts were pestering me to tell them where I was going to go. Then they repeatedly ask me what I’m planning on majoring in and then what I want to do after college. Of course, it is my decision in the end so I don’t let what they say really affect my decision. I also loved reading the end of your article about how to find a starting point for yourself. I never thought about something like this and now that I have read this, I know for sure that I will constantly think about my “path” and what my starting point is for that. I truly liked reading this blog and I can say in confidence that I will be back next week.
Hi, Ian
It’s pretty cool that you already started to invest money when you were so young. I have no clue how any of that works and the thought of potentially losing all that money scares the crap out of me so good on you for taking a risk. If it helps curb your anxiety about retirement I can tell you that as you make more money in the future and put that into an investment account it will add up quickly, meaning you probably won’t retire at 70 so don’t worry you have a lot of time to make some good cash before then. It was pretty interesting to see you connect this to how people don’t know what their future holds and this is definitely something I can agree with you on. Predicting the future is a fool’s errand and will only make life harder for you. I can relate heavily to the part where you talked about how family members would come and ask you what university you plan on going to or what you plan on studying while in college and you wouldn’t have any clue on what to say. I always found that part of college very daunting because choosing something right now you want to do for the rest of your life seems like an impossible choice. I wish I was able to try more things and learn different subjects more in-depth before having to make a decision like that.
Ian, this piece was probably my favorite out of what you’ve put out so far. I could not agree more with the weight that society puts on thinking about your future. I think this fits your personality of thinking mathematically, and I think that is perfect for making your problems less overwhelming. I really enjoy reading these because it allows me to see more into what you think on a daily basis, which is something I never get to see. I look forward to reading more as the semester goes on.