Finally, the last blog of the semester. Like always, this is written on the day it is due and I actually forgot that it was Thursday because for some reason, this week has just been such a blur and I’ve kind of just started to stop keeping track of what day it is. My sister came home two days ago and we are currently having family movie time watching How to Train Your Dragon 3 while I type my life away on my computer.
Since this school year is kind of almost over and we’re about to graduate in like one more month, I wanted to write down my goals for this summer and also for future college so that I can perhaps come back and reread this when summer is almost over. I expect that by then, I will tragically realize that I’ve accomplished none of the goals that I actually wanted to complete.
The first thing I wanted to do this summer was to get a completely new wardrobe. While I do love the clothes I currently have, I want to embrace my soon-to-be role for the next four years as a newfound city girl and dress somewhat decent. It’s funny though because I don’t think I’ll for sure follow through with this plan due to the fact that I am genuinely so broke and will probably have to be spending what little money I do have on dorm room necessities.
I also want to spend some more time with my friends before we all go our separate ways. I feel like I say this but then again I also always end up cooped up at home sleeping the day away instead. I swear though that this summer will be different and I will try my best and make the effort to go out more often. Ashley and I actually still have plans to return to Chicago when the snow doesn’t violently slap our faces and freeze our fingers, so hopefully, it will be even more fun then and we can freely explore (without getting kidnapped).
Spending time with my friends also includes returning to the gym after my unfortunate one-year hiatus due to laziness. My friend and I did go quite often last year over the summer but then we stopped. Maybe I’ll be able to build some muscle before I go off to college just for fun :’)
Another thing I genuinely want to do is try and get my life together. I don’t know what happened but it seems as if high school has just completely deteriorated my brain and my study skills have just
gotten worse and worse. Hopefully, I somehow get a change in mindset and become a mysterious dark academia aesthetic city girl. This is definitely a hard feat for me to achieve, so I doubt it’ll happen but it’s worth putting down on this blog. Adding on to that is to fix my continuous and seemingly chronic neck and back pain. I told myself that I would make an attempt and do something to strengthen my spine to avoid actual injury. I just don’t think that starting a new chapter in my life with persisting neck and back pain is cute at all.
For the next few school years, extroversion is something that I also want to work on. Especially with such a large campus and so many people, I know that introversion isn’t going to get me anywhere near where I want to be, so I’m hoping that I can at least be a little less awkward when meeting new people. I’m also praying to the heavens that my roommate isn’t an absolute nightmare and that we can get along or maybe even become best friends (or not).
A little intermission to this boring blog: I am still watching How to Train Your Dragon 3 and Toothless and his girlfriend just got kidnapped because the sister from the pair of twins brought the evil guy back to their hideout. I am beyond agitated and actually quite sad but it’s quite alright, everything’s bound to be fixed in the end.
ANYWAYS, my conclusion to this boring blog is that I hope to have a fresh start in this new chapter of my life and I want to do a lot of things this summer to improve myself not only outwardly but also inwardly. Not that I’m not satisfied with how my life is right now, but I just think this is a chance for me to take a hard reset and become the best version of myself. Happy almost last month of high school everyone <3
Hey Jessica, with the school year winding down, I have also been thinking about what I want to accomplish before I graduate and my goals for when I head off to college. I can relate with you in wanting to update my wardrobe, but dressing up every day is a lot of effort that I don’t really want to put in. I’m fine with my clothes as long as they look decent and they’re comfy. I’ve been trying to plan what I need to buy for my dorm room when I go off to college, but most of that “planning” is just me saving TikTok slideshows of students showing their “dorm room essentials”. I like how you mentioned that you wanted to make sure you spend more time with your friends while you still can in the summer. It is just now hitting me that I don’t know exactly when I will see most of the people that I’ve spent a lot of time with over these past four years again after the summer is over. I suppose college is a new opportunity to make more memories though. Accomplishing goals that you set out for yourself is something that I’ve learned requires a lot of consistency above all else, and I hope that you can achieve what you want to.
Hellooo Jessica. I would just like to say that I really like your sense of style and always appreciate your outfits, even when they are not the most conducive to the weather. I could totally see you leaning even further into your current style because I think it suits you well, but I also understand needing a change and I think that could be just as cute! I also hope to get into the gym more often; I’ve been playing soccer consecutively for like at least 7 years now so I’ve never felt like I wasn’t getting enough exercise and thus I have never had the desire to become a gym girly. But all of my friends have so much fun lifting together at Lifetime and I might play club soccer in college but if I decide not to, I really won’t have any form of exercise so I think it would be beneficial if I get into the habit of going to the gym now so I can continue when I finally get on campus. I think my habits/mindset needs to change a whole lot before I get to college. It’s going to be a big adjustment, but I think you’ll make an amazing city girl!
Hey Jessica!
I absolutely love making lists of things I want to do. I’m sure there is just some part of human nature that makes making lists and crossing items off of it so damn satisfying! As a side note “How To Train Your Dragon” is perhaps the quintessential childhood movie for me . There was something so magical about this ordinary, if not slightly awkward guy, stumbling upon this rare dragon who becomes his best friend. As a kid wanting to become a veterinarian, I lost my stuff over this movie! This serves as a reminder to rewatch it! I am so excited you mentioned our soon-to-be-planned Chicago trip because we have to prepare you before you go off on your own. Please don’t get kidnapped on a bus. I hope we can visit the camel again without freezing our fingers off. I say we spend more time thrifting. I am also in the works of a new wardrobe but each time I try to recreate an aesthetic, I am just struck by the many options that I can choose from. My favorite has to be Granola Girl but I also like the old money aesthetic. Share a pinterest board with me, I would love to see what kind of aesthetic you are going for!
Hey Jessica! I’m so with you when it comes to actually following through with my goals. Like you, I too, have been going a little crazy with revamping my wardrobe before heading off to college. Just this past week I went shopping for prom, but ended up also buying a bunch of jewelry and clothes to give a new aesthetic a try. I also have been constantly saying that this summer I’m going to get absolutely jacked but so far I’ve made zero steps to actually reach that goal by the end of the summer. And I can really really relate to the thing with deteriorating study skills because I’ve felt that after Covid I’ve only developed bad habits on top of bad habits. Now that we’re kind of in the endzone, though, I feel like I’ve finally woken up from this groggy sleep we like to call highschool and now I’m actually spending time with my friends in the way I should’ve a long time ago. And by the way, How to Train Your Dragon – absolutely immaculate of a series. I remember growing up and watching all of the films and the show and I loved how the writers made Hiccup and the gang grow up as we did. Like seriously, I still remember seeing old and married Hiccup and Astrid reuniting with Toothless with their kids at the end of the saga. That one scene seriously almost made me cry. But yeah, good luck Jessica on AP exams, because once that’s done, I hope you get the freedom from highschool we all need!